haha.. i could of blog about T&T .. but that will be reapeat of a whole comment.. so if you really want to read it.. go check out "hush of eternity" blog and you can read his blog about t7t and my comment.. but anyways..

the last time i blog was monday.. so let me see what i have to type about today.. well i was painting my driveway and MOLY COW! a bee hive.. on top of my driveway.. lol.. mission kill bees.. so in the morning me and my dad went and bought the "spray can" also know as "raid bee & wasp killer".. after thqat.. me and my dad wait until 11 pm.. then we go out and start spraying the beww hive like mad.. lol.. well my dad was doing all the work.. i gave my mental support.. not in the house.. but in the car.. safe behind glass windows and lock cars.. well you can't say i didn't help kill the bees.. becuz my dad couldn't see well in the dark so i open the head lights =D .. what great support anyone can give their courageous dad.. lol.. well it was better than my friend who live on her own.. she had a bee hive on a tree close to her home.. and she ask me and a guy to help her.. so the plan was to sit in the car.. then grab a long stick.. and throw it at the bee hive and run away.. lol... well you can't say it wasn't fun.. but you can also say.. alot of throwing attempts are made and um.. they weren't quite as sucessful..  oh.. but in the end we did hit the bee hive eh? like after alot of tries.. and the bees did swarm the car.. but lol.. thank goodness for electronic windows and my friend being able to drive super fast..

lol.. wow.. i just worte a beehive story.. anyways.. did anyone watch the winnipeg comedy fest.. it was all aboriginals.. and they kept on making fun of the european people.. lol but it was funny.. and the new comedy inc. that show is funny.. and who says american has all the humor.. i think canadian humor is way better.. lol..  welll that was al the lat night shows i watch this week.. i dun't need to mention anyways about simpsons.. the show is always hilarious and insulting in it's own ways..

argh!! supa killing... friday's weather was un-acceptable!.. the crazy heavy hail and rain flooded my basement.. from an afternoon nap to a crazy boy running around with buckets..! i seriously think i did my best from keeping the water out.. the basement windowright next to my computer had a leak!.. from a small leak.. it got into a big leak! eek!.. thankfully my monitor is oki.. and all my computer stuff is oki.. after a 1 hr inspection.. but i lost a couple of cds.. =.= sigh* but you know what was worst about the flood.. after my basement was 1/4 flooded.. i had a black out for 4-5 hrs and muahaha.. i was wet,cold,hungry,sleepy... o well.. i made it alive.. now my basement looks likes "Iraq".. and i am slowly trying to restore my basement into what it use to look like.. with some new adjustment here and there.. but it took me 2 whole days to take out the water that was soaking on the carpet and dry the carpet up.. it's been 3 days since i touch my computer.. boo hoo!.. without electricity.. my life is like.. ugh! lol.. it was all clean up the basement, sleep, eat.. hm.. o well.. i wonder how my friends are doing.. i heard it was two tornado.. O.O interesting eh?

Well actually i dunno which was more interesting and exciting.. a floding house or going to badminton.. haha... in the end i decided not to go badminton.. i doubt any of my friends can go either.. but o well.. we will find something esel to do later..

Well nothing really much to talk about.. since my last 3 days have been a drag... so i will blog another day.. hopefully with something better to say..

Woah 60$ shopping spree.. must go again.. i have 2 more times to go spending on clothes.. woot blue notes is kool!.. my favourite shop.. lalala.
I had a fun time shopping for clothes.. willie and cindy tried making me wear orange.. hm.. they thought i look good.. hm.. dunno i thought it was oki.. probably look better on somebody esle...  shopping with old friends is pretty kool .. becuz you get to remember the old times.. and re experince each others company..

i saw my friend who is older than me by 2 years.. every time i see him.. he shows me all his new games and stuff.. so kool! he is like the big brother i never had.. even tho is so crazy and in to playing games.. he is such a hard working student.. he goes to western. i watch national treasure with him.. and then we play ps2.. so it was kool.. he showed me his magic cards.. lol.. he got me into playing... ^.^.. woot woot..

ouchie.. hurt myself today in badminton.. got alittle to confident and did to much crazy shots.. oh well.. atleast i won both games.. but ouchie.. had to site out for 20 mins..

EEK! hehe -.-"" i forgot about the badminton thing on friday.. SOwwwie! // but i can still come as long as fat dude can give me a lift there...

WOOO! my long lost friend visiting me.. left me in gr 4.. me and wille.. but she is visiting me tommo.. this is goign to be an interesting day.. but omg.. today i was at my grandparents house.. i flip the channel and saw a lady win a 5 thousand dollar toilet.. amazing eh? not good enough? inside the toilet was 2 thousand dollar real money! wooo my kind of toilet!.. i dun't remmeber what the show is call.. but it was crazy.. it is on ctv.. channel 8.. for ppl who are as fascinated as me..

i find this song which sounds good.. well too me it does.. but i dunno why.. it is by tommy lee.. it is called good times..  the music video was lame in my eyes tho...  well better then black ppl just jiggling all over the screen on their mtv.. but i should stop on that comment before some persaon who actually likes it reads this line... ekks..!

can't wait until badminton.. so got ot perfect a couple of my playing techniques... and have to seriously stop joking around.. on the court.. going to get wack by my partner someday... but any who..! what esle can a waba criticism on a sunday night...

omg.. does anyone watch the late night leno show... that guys really makes americans look dumb.. funny thing is.. the audience laughs and appaud.. awkward eh? well i just dun't find the things funny.. actually i find it very lame... haha.. now was that a weird critiscism.. hey .. i still find who's line is it anyways a kool comedy show! .. those ppl can sing...on the top of their heads!.. reminds me of fat man.. .hm... 

uh oh.. itme to go.. later for now 

Sincei am going to university and all.. i have really been planning hard to make my life into a useful life. So i have been here and there trying to make my known to the word. Through help of some people, i am now meeting people and i feel like i am more a part of society. Big house parties are pretty neat when you walk around and start meeting people and getting contacts of people who are intersting to talk to or who can help you in the future. I think i can enjoy this life. Well actually i can't. well not like i dun't fit in with these people in their house parties.. just that really isn't me.. but if i want a better life in this big city.. i guess i dun't got a choice.. such a good opportunity to be a somebody and not a nobody.. =.= it is always nice to be known by many people.

I should say a big sorrie to my friends tho! i have really left them behind while i was on a rampage of working on my future. I was just so busy trying to work hard get cash and go to parties or badminton with some weathly people living in the far suburbans.. trying to hard to be known around the popular people.

but.. you know.. i dunno what i want.. do i want a rich busy life.. or a sweet simple life.. maybe next year.. i will drop the promotion and high spotz.. and go back to hong kong with some friends to relax there.. live the simple relax life..

but then again.. i can comeback.. connect some more with some media people and get more money and be one of those busy people who is just trying to run the best day camp of their lives and going out to parties and stuff.. both life sounds okay.. just dunno which one i would want to pick..

haha.. dang.. is that a rant..  o no university is here.. i need to buy clothes an restock myself.. woo hoo.. shopping time.. someday... but first.. i need to meet up with all my friends first.. =)

had a long chat with my friend!... Well reflecting through our 4 years as friends and all the things that has happen to us during these 4 years. Well... we talk about the group i hang out with. My friend knows that i am soso with this group and i do alot of things to plz this group of friends. Well i dunno should i carry on with this or is it time to say good bye.
 
i've always been a flower. i have layers. I hide alot of things from my friends. i do not do things for the fact of drawing attention. All i want is a group of happy friends that can be with me and laugh with me. But.. with the group i am with.. i actually been smiling infront of them but tearing myself apart inside. I guess my friends never felt to find out who i am and they are never there for me when i need it. i guess i can't ask too much since they dun't read minds. BUt.. i am definitely tired of doing things and hiding things.

As a teenager boy, i dun't have a high income and it would be nice to be the best child in the family. I've always been covering up for my friends mishap without them knowing and i always thought doing this would make them happier and they probably think of me more or atleast be more open to me as how i open up my things to them.

i've been pretty piss with the behaviour some of my friends have and sometimes i do see it as my fault. Sometimes it seems my friends do not think about the consequences. All they want is the reward.. they do not care about the outcome that will happen after they receive the reward. I am one of the types of people who might disagree with what you do but help you out secretly without you knowing.. this year.. my friends are great creative planners.. they are so good at planning.. but they never think about the ppl they are planning it for.. For say.. planning a camping trip with no transportation.. this sounds like a bright idea.. planning a camping trip without thinking about the cost budget and stuff needed for the trip. well listen up folks.. this camping trip would be crap if you dun't start planning rite. 

When a person decides to "host" a party, it really means they are being prepare to serve their guest and make it a blast of their lifes.. When a person decides to host a party.. it is usually at their place or they are prepare to help since they are hosting it. Everything must be plan out to the detail.

what made me piss about this situation is.. thxs to my group of firends that i treasure alot.. i got a 3hr lecture plus an on goign after effect once in a while from my parents.. see.. i could of not lend out my house and not get in trouble.. i only did it since the ppl who form this party plans "backfire".. would this happen if you thought of it carefully.. 

that event piss me off alot.. took me a long time to settle my parents anger.. yea..reminder to self.. never lend out your house if you are not the one responsible for the party... i really shouldn't be cleaning up ppl's mess all the time.. 

i am a simple guy.. i always dream of living in a peaceful cottage living a simple life with the ones i love most.. i dun't ask for much.. i want a group of friends that can be around me and hear me out.. or we can have fun playing together.. i only want friends who care for me as much as i care for each and one of them. Sometimes.. i just feel like.. i give you friendship and you just take this friendship i give you and drag it all over the dirt... 

i am sick.. my friends dun't knwo me well.. i still have the heart to be their friend.. but being with them is like being stab with a big thorn in the chest.. i am left out of the conversation.. i lost my touch.. i am the invisible guy around the corner.. i am sometimes even better off with ppl i dunno well then with my friends.. 

When i am going thru memories.. i dun't see any good memories i had with my friends.. i just remember the good times i have miss when they have fun without me.. 

i like helping my friends.. i hate being taken advantage of.. when i do something.. lot of thinking goes through my head and i think about the worth of things... my decision sometimes are pretty bias.. but i try judging every situation as neutral as possible.. sometimes.. i just want ppl to knwo what ground they stand on...

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Staircase - this person.. can be a so call friend.. but only reason she is my friend is only becuz of one person.. without that person... i am probably not going to be your friend either.. i hate you too the guts.. i want you to change.. and when you do.. i would be your friend.. but as long as you look like a slut.. i seriously need to re think about this relationship between us.. you make even the worst ppl look good.. -

angel - you are an angel to me and everything you do most of the time.. i am their support your decision.. tho i dun't like the way you make friends.. it's a good thing to make friends.. but why do you have to make such an awkward group.. i hate big groups.. big groups go no where.. and i think you have to realize that the "huns" is a stupid group which does not really belong in our group.. we did not form this grou.. you did! and i dun't think everyone in this group likes have a group of huns.. this is an independant group.. it does not belong in this group.. sigh* i hate to say it.. but if this group forms.. then i rather leave you and tell you to go join your huns and leave this group.. these two groups dun't belong together.. -

crazy parent - you are crazy.. sometime i look up to you .. you are mature and you see things maturely.. but sometime.. you are just crazy.. you neva think of consequence.. you might use yoru loud voice and make yourself sound right but what you are saying really is pretty useless and not helpful.. useless information.. you can get so annoying sometimes.. really drive me nuts.. -

violent authority - you never talk reasonable.. hanging with a group of dictators who do not care about others accept themselves.. you are so hard to deal with.. why can't you stand up for your friends who are opposite sex from you! is it just becuz we are guys..that is why we get to be punish by your harsh unreasonable judgement.. -

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-angel -tall -beetles -silent dragon	-staircase -crazy parent -aaron

i dunno anymore.. i feel so hollow inside.. my friend tells me this group is finish.. is this group really finish... should i leave.. should i not.. well honestly.. their are important ppl i just can't forget about.. even tho i rant on now.. i know i will be with these ppl one again at their service.. i would still be their for them..

i dunno.. dun't feel like working.. last night i had a really bad headache..i think it was becuz of school. haha.. or was it the heat.. anyways.. today while walking home in the hot desert road! i came up with this poem.. so just decide to put it somewhere..  it's call "you".. dun't ask me why... i just felt like it..

YOU

Never really felt to

Truly deeply want you

Never felt this way

Ever before

 

Just want to touch you

Hold you and protect you

You are my means

To live forever more

i haven't blog for a long time. but lot's of things have been happening during the time i was not blog-ing. Well... yes... summer is coming and so are exams… How to prepare for these exams.. are exams important to me.. yes they are.. I have been trying to find a purpose in life except for having fun. I have kind of decided who important figures in my life are and who aren't. My last 17 years of life is only the beginning. Now i have a whole career in front of me. I've look up to a lot of people during my 17 years of life. I want to build a career and just spend the rest of my life with the person i want to be with. =) simple! Well that might be your goal too but I am not a guy who pursue career. Career really isn't my top priority. The people I want to be with for the rest of my life with. 

I have been thinking a lot of what my friend should be like. Well, threw my life history, I’m a guy that likes a lot of attention (who doesn't) I have been getting a lot of attention ever since I was small. I was never lonely because I was surrounded by friends. I never had a stable group of friends because I never saw them important. I just thought friends are a group people who so happens have something in common with you and we are all here to use each other for other own purposes.

 

 However, my thoughts about this change a lot when I met the group of friends who were smart and seem to be happy people. They were easy to please and with my joker personality, I can attract attention easily. But on of the people in the group was really upset with me. She knew I move around meeting friends a lot and she thought I won’t take friendship seriously. Well… I guess she was right. I never did take friendship seriously. However, my view about friendship change and I remember a promise I made to her. “I will never leave this group and you will always be my friend” ß well I think it was somewhere along these lines… I will keep my promise!

After that promise, my new group of friends molded me. Well I didn’t change in a snap of a finger but I did change a lot. Thinking about the traces of our existence, I had a lot of experience with each friend. Now I will go through each one by one. (you may skip this..)

 

The first person I am going to talk about. Well she first caught my attention with her orange vest. (I love bright colors and orange is funkadelic) I start getting to know her more through an online game called gunbound. I thought we were good partner because together we were undefeatable! =D good days! Good times! She was the pro-cake bot and I was the pro boomer. We both know how to do the hardest shot but she was always better than me. =) but it didn’t matter. I had a lot of fun. She always has a lot to talk about and I just love to hear her speak. I guess she had quiet me down from begin the one talking all the time; I learn that listening is really cool. I love her personality, s