I wasn't really planning to blog today but somebody has been constantly bugging me to update my blog, so this is it. A lot has been happening to me since the last time that I posted an entry here in thespoke.

Time seems to go so fast. It seems like just yesterday that I started training and now we are on our OJT, one more month to go and training is over. I feel a bit wierd. On one hand I want it to be over but on the other hand some part of me wants to continue training. This sort of thing happens to a lot of people. Most people want long term events such as high school, college, or trainings to be over with as soon as possible. But upon nearing the end they still want to continue. I wonder if there is a scientific explanation for this, this just one of those unanswered question that keeps bugging me.

I went home to Davao last Saturday and came back to Cebu the day after, talk about a short vacation. My grandmother wanted to see was I doing so I came back home. Nothing much happening in Davao, just that when you check-in at the airport you have to take off your shoes and run it through the x-ray machine. This is because of the bombing incident. Actually it was not a real bombing incident. There was this anti-terrorist expert that came to Davao from Manila. He filmed himself in the lavatory of the airplane assembling a bomb, and he put the C4 explosive in his shoes. This just proved how the security in Philippine airports are.

Nothing more to say for now. Have to go back to work. See you guys later...

Last Friday end the week long examinations and men was I relieved. A weekend long partying followed after that. Friday night  I didn't went home. We played Dota until 5 am Saturday morning. I slept from 5 to 12 pm and then went to the office to do something. That night me and my friends from college went out to dinner catch up on has been happening with our work. A friend called and invited us to this bar, so we did. I went home at about 2 am drunk, hehehe... I woke up Sunday morning at about 9:30 with a bad headache.

This past few days I'm having trouble waking up early. Work starts at 8 sharp and I get up at around 7:30. It was really trouble some I have to shower and change really quickly, I have to deal with the heavy traffic, because on the way to the office I have to pass 3 schools. I would arrive in the office at exactly 8. Actually it's 8 office time, my time is 20 minutes early so I still have a lot of time to spare.

Being independent in another city is quite cool, you get to do anything you want without anybody telling you. But you yourself has to set limits on yourself and discipline yourself in order to survive. I learned that lesson the hard way.

It's Saturday, usually I oversleep and do nothing on Saturdays. This time it's different, I'm currently in the office studying of our exam. I'm trying to cram in one book's worth of information in to my head in two hours. I hadn't had the time mto study last night because I was really tired. It was a whole week of contious exam. I tried studying last night, but nothing retains in my head.

After today I will have one day rest, that's tomorrow Sunday, and the exams will again continue next week from Monday to Friday, thank God Saturday was excluded. Got to go, I still have 70 pages to go.

I feel a little weak all of a sudden. I think I'm running a fever. I didn't realize I over exerted my self during the training. What a bad time to catch a fever, this week we will have a lot of exam. I have no time to get sick now. I have a lot of stuff to study because I have to catch up with a lot of things. I pray that I'll get well soon, like really soon.

Before I came to Cebu for work I didn't know it's going to be this lonely, I'm originally from Davao by the way. There are times that I feel the longing for my friends and family, the good and bed times we'd have, the constant arguing with my brother, the sleepless nights programming our project. I really miss those days.

In the past I have been away from my family countless times, sometimes even months at a time, but I didn't felt lonely. Maybe because I'm with my friends to keep me company or something else. Maybe in those times I know unconsciously that I will come back home soon, that's why I didn't felt lonely, or maybe some other reason.

Being alone in another place without having anybody count on to prepare food for you or wash your cloths is an eye opening experience for me. When I was still home, my father and mother spoiled me. They give whatever I wanted, prepared everything for me, those sort of things. Also I used to be spent, and I mean a lot. I asked for money for a lot of useless things. Now that I'm earning my own money I have to be carefull on what to spent, because if I don't I won't have enough to buy food.

God really does work in mysterious ways. I'm very thankfull for Him giving me this experience.

I really can't wait to go back home to be with my friends and family...

Just finished the first week of training and men is it hard, especially learning nihongo (japanese language). I thought college was hard but this doesn't even compare to college. Our instructor told us that the training will run a period of five months, and it will be like compressing our four years of college into five months.

So I will be out for five months. Maybe I'll drop by once in a while.

Last Saturday I just got my wisdom tooth pulled out. My dentist advised me to extract that tooth because it was making my other teeth crooked. She said that it was a special case because the teeth is growing abnormally. It was an impacted teeth meaning the tooth was not growing vertically but at an angle.

The dentist explain to me what she is going to do. She told me that she would make an incision before pulling the tooth out. It was really nerve wrecking when she was explaining the procedure. I was telling my self "why does she need to tell me all this things, why doesn't she go on with it to get it over with".

After it was done it wasn't that bad. My jaw hurts a little because she was grabbing my jaw to anchor it so she could pull the tooth out. The bleeding didn't stop for 24 hours. When I woke up the next morning I found my pillow soaked in blood, this just goes to show that I drool when I sleep, hehehe. Now my mouth is partly swolen because of the operation. She said that it will take 7 days before the swellign settles.

It has been quite sometime since my last blog and a lot has happen since that time. Some of them are good while some are not that positive.

I have finished, defended and submitted my thesis already. I was really releived when our panel accepted our thesis. Because of that I was able to graduate, horay.... There are some frustration I had during graduation. I felt a bit frustrated because I didn't graduate with honors. I think if I had put a little more effort into my studies I would've graduated with honors. I felt like I failed my parents, they were able to send me into a good university and maybe as my token of thanks to them I could have graduated with honors. But that's that, we can't do anything about it.

This past few months I am having trouble breathing. When I consulted with my doctor she said I had asthma, according to her I might have inherited it from my family because majority of our family member has asthma. Until now I'm still having trouble breathing.

God has truly blessed me, because I was able to get a job before I grauduated. I was accepted to ADTX Systems Cebu office as a trainee. Training starts this May 15. My only concern is that will this difficulty in breathing will hinder me to perform well.

All I can say is that life is full of ups and downs, we can't do anything about it, all we can do is go with the flow and hope that we don't get wiped out.

using System.Net;
using System.Net.Mail;

class Mailer
{
    public bool SendMail(string email)
    {
        SmtpClient client = new SmtpClient("IP adress of the computer that relay messages");
        MailAddress from = new MailAddress("some_email@your_domain.com")
        MailAddress to = new MailAddress(email);
        MailMessage message = new MailMessage(from, to);
        message.Body =  "hi there..";
        message.Subject = "Account Activation";
        client.Send(message);
    }

}

this code relays smtp to a mail server but it is done in vs 2005. Can anybody help me to convert this to vs 2003 MS.net 1.1. or another way of doing this please help me.

Yesterday was the culmination of our prayer and fasting. It started last Friday. I did a one meal a day fast, but if I can take I sometimes do a liquid fast. Acutally it isn't that hard, my stomach didn't complain that much but there were times that I felt weak and dizzy. I did the fast to pray for breakthroughs in my life, because I'm already graduating this year and whole new chapter of my life will unfold afterwards. It was a very humbling experience purifying oneself for God. But I had to break the fast early. This because I got sick and my medication requires me to eat something before taking the medicine. It doesn't matter if I finished the fasting or not all that matters that I did it for God and for Him alone.

Psychology shows that majority of the decisions made by adolescents comes from the emotional part of the brain. They make decision based on social confirmity and peer acceptability. On the other hand adults make decisions using the logical part of the brain. They make decision based on advantages and disadvantages that would effect out of it.

Last week I had to make one of the hardest decision in my life. It's about my status in our studio, should I continue or stop dancing. I really like dancing, it's like an avenue for me to release tension and express myself. Also it's good excercise, it keeps me healthy. On the other hand my parents are pressuring me to stop dancing, they say that I should concentrate more on my studies because I'm graduating this March. But the dancing did not affect my studies.

After a long time of thinking and prayer and some advice from y friends I finally decided, I would stop for a while. Actually if you look at it my parents have a lot of valid points. Also I could return to dancing anytime I want. One year of dancing is already enough, I think it's time for me to take some much needed rest and concentrate more on my studies especially my thesis.

It has been quite a while since my last blog, mainly for two reasons.

First of all I was busy with my thesis technical output. I planned to finish the program during the Christmas break so that I would have more free time when classes resume.

Second reason is the spam filter of yahoo. Previously when I check my email there would be lots of blog entry or reply in my email, then one day I was puzzled when no there was no mail notification. Just recently I found out that yahoo has a spam filter and it was turned on in my account, maybe that's what causing all this. I just turned it off before I blogged this entry.

I havent bogged for a while because I'm really busy with my thesis.

I just want to ask any of you, if you have any idea. I tied using sessions in my web service the code is:

Session.Add("Credential", hash(uname, pword));

hash is a method i made.

there is a nullreferenceexception. can you guys help me on this.

Last night was the Victory Awards Davao 2005. It is an annual event where people in our church (Victory Christian Fellowship) are acknowledge for their dedicated and faithful work in the church. It was like a local version of the Academy Awards where people wear their best suits and dresses. All the guys where wearing coat and ties while the ladies where on their best evening dress.

My friend's father won father of the year. Julia, which is a good friend of mine, recieve the best usher for the female category. LCB-Performing Arts Center, which I'm a part of, was awarded the most fruitful company because the talents that comes out from there are not just good performers but also faithful Christians. The artistic director of LCB-PAC was awarded the evangelist of the year female. And lastly Ateneo de Davao University, which is my school, is awarded most promissing school in the college level.

I really need help if anyoen out there who can help me please do.

I'm trying to find out how to verify internet connectivity in C#. I've tried using the WebResponce.getRequest() it will work if I'm online, but once I'm offline the application will hang if I reach that code. I was hoping that it will throw and exception but it doesn't it just freezes there.