Well!! this is kind of suprising... I would've never thought i would make my own blog, weird? This is my first blog & I'm quite uncomfortable & a lil'bit of uneasy for me to write down my thoughts 'cause maybe i'm afraid to show who i really am & what I think. People often describe me as a loner. One classmate told me that she observed that most of the time, she see's me just sitting around the corner, silent, as if i we're carrying the problem of the whole human race and wants to know what is in the mind of a Steivene Quintana. And one classmate told me that he can read me like a book, maybe because siya 'yong taong sinasabihan ko ng mga problema, mga sekreto at mga hinanakit ko but you know what? There's a lot to me na hindi pa nila nalalaman, he can read me like a book? well, he better read again 'cause this is a "lost chapter" that needs to reads about.

I want to start my blog with a question...Do we need to live?...It's not even a hyphothetical question right? but the reason why i asked this question is because my life has been a blur. I have ran out of reasons on why i should continue to live. "I'm so completely torn, it must have been that yesterday, it was the day that i was born." Nothing could've prepared me from the things that happened in my life this past months. I even got to the point that i tried to blame GOD and questioned his authority. "'cause i am barely breathing."

I have underachieved a lot of things because of this "things" & i felt all this time that i was under a cloud meaning distrust, distrust to oneself. "Nothing left to reason, only left to blame, will it ever changed?"....oh! what have i become? This feeling of uncertainty, I can hear my soul crying, being tormented by the darkside. "Everyone keeps asking  what it's all about? I used to be so certain and i can figure it out."

"We are constantly on a war, war with terrorism, racism but most of all we are on a war to ourselves." I just want to shout Jesus walk with me! "God show me the way because the devil is trying to break me down & the only thing that i pray is that my feet don't fail me now."

Through my blogs, i will slowly unmask who i am. "Lahat tayo ay mayroong pagkakaiba, sa tingin palang ay makikita na, iba't-ibang kagustuhan ngunit isa'ng patutunguhan."

I will always remember that all things happens for a reason, that there is a bright future waiting for me ahead, that "he" knows better than i.

"Pakita mo ang tunay na kulay at kung sino ka, mayroong mang masama at maganda, wala namang perpekto basta magpakatotoo."

This is who i am....

NOte: The following quotes are lyrics of various artists.